moving on

There's something in my head lately that is about me and my friends from high school. So much nostalgia these days. Today is the birthday of one of my closest friend from high school (not any more). I did something that she would pissed off and she never told me about that. So, I never had a chance to make up with her, I don't know what's got into her mind. I do like her since we were best mates ever in high school. I know it's partially my fault, I don't know how to face her or explain the misunderstanding that she never brought up to me. She kept quiet and I guess that pushed us to become strangers, well almost. Sometimes, we have short conversations when we met on street, restaurants, etc. And that's all! We haven't had real conversation for like more than a year. Frankly, that makes me kinda sad. I tried to get closer to her after all these things happened but she moved to another place and made new friends and hanged out with them. So, no more chances for me. I really wished I could have said sorry to her at least once but she never told me how she felt about it. Anyway, now I have to admit that I'm jealous of her having her good time with her new buddies and me alone with Austin. That must be punishment from Heaven for me being meddle into something that I shouldn't have. I will be leaving this place may be after graduation around March. So, we won't be seeing each others for rest of our life, unless I tried to meet with her. She seems to move on for what happened , i guess I need to move on too by now. I just wanna say thank you for being with me for last last year, I did have a good time with you. Without you, I will not make this far. Good luck with everything you're doing! Bye.