Everyday life going on, people passing by around me and I am writing about it
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Saturday, October 1, 2011
Looking forward to the holiday
My last exam will be on Oct 3rd and I will get a long holiday after that until end of Oct. I have planned many things to do during break but in reality, I might not be doing all the things ( financial limit) ,you know what I am talking about. haha
Anyhow, I've talked with Austin and he agreed to take me to Siam Park which I ever wanted to go once before I graduate. I used to go there once with my family back in 2006 also in October (if my memory serves me right). Now, we will be going there again. Yayyy!
I believe it's gonna be fun and we will take good pictures,eating nice foods, swimming and playing in park. I have been waiting for this day for so long since last year. Austin's friends are not sure about going with us but we decided , actually I decided to get a cheaper ticket to save money to spend in other things. With or without them, I'm still fine as long as we two can enjoy our time. Austin seems bored to go with me alone but he will try to convince his friends to take photos for us.
By the way, my mom wants me to come back during the break but I want to stay at home and rest. I lose some weights and that will make her sad when she sees me. That's the one reason and I don't feel like traveling during my relax time too. So, she will probably fly to me before my last semester ends. I am really sorry for her cause I know she miss me and I miss her too. Anyway, I will try to gain some weights back plus I start taking multivitamins to boost up my system.
Hopefully, I won't be skinny girl in my last semester. Fingers crossed to gain weight! lol
Anyhow, I've talked with Austin and he agreed to take me to Siam Park which I ever wanted to go once before I graduate. I used to go there once with my family back in 2006 also in October (if my memory serves me right). Now, we will be going there again. Yayyy!
I believe it's gonna be fun and we will take good pictures,eating nice foods, swimming and playing in park. I have been waiting for this day for so long since last year. Austin's friends are not sure about going with us but we decided , actually I decided to get a cheaper ticket to save money to spend in other things. With or without them, I'm still fine as long as we two can enjoy our time. Austin seems bored to go with me alone but he will try to convince his friends to take photos for us.
By the way, my mom wants me to come back during the break but I want to stay at home and rest. I lose some weights and that will make her sad when she sees me. That's the one reason and I don't feel like traveling during my relax time too. So, she will probably fly to me before my last semester ends. I am really sorry for her cause I know she miss me and I miss her too. Anyway, I will try to gain some weights back plus I start taking multivitamins to boost up my system.
Hopefully, I won't be skinny girl in my last semester. Fingers crossed to gain weight! lol
He is an ass!
Last night, we had a long talk and I asked him if he ever cheated on me in these years. He told me he didn't but he admitted that he did flirted with some girls. He said it's just for fun, nothing serious and all guys doing it. He said I am the only one he love and the girls are nothing compare to me. I mean why he still doing this if he really loves me.
He flirted with girls especially when we got into fights or when he frustrated with something. This is bullshit! And there's no reasons to flirt with girls to make you feel better. It's just ridiculous! What do these girls think about me? They would probably think I am the cheap bitch who doesn't know her guy is obviously flirting with them. I feel so shameful, insecure and piss off at him. He said he felt guilty after all he was doing these things. Seriously, what do he take me for?
Ughh, what did I do to him to treat me like this?
I understand guys will do guys things but he's my man and everyone knows that we have been dating for more than 3years. If my family find out that, I probably have to dump him to save for myself from evil bf.
He thinks he's smart, chick-magnet and every girls would fall for him if he pull off his zipper, far more than that. haha
He told me he won't do this anymore and he will give me all his passwords when I move to S'pore. Let's see what he will do when I'm not around. He will learn it in hard way that freedom doesn't sweet without me.
He flirted with girls especially when we got into fights or when he frustrated with something. This is bullshit! And there's no reasons to flirt with girls to make you feel better. It's just ridiculous! What do these girls think about me? They would probably think I am the cheap bitch who doesn't know her guy is obviously flirting with them. I feel so shameful, insecure and piss off at him. He said he felt guilty after all he was doing these things. Seriously, what do he take me for?
Ughh, what did I do to him to treat me like this?
I understand guys will do guys things but he's my man and everyone knows that we have been dating for more than 3years. If my family find out that, I probably have to dump him to save for myself from evil bf.
He thinks he's smart, chick-magnet and every girls would fall for him if he pull off his zipper, far more than that. haha
He told me he won't do this anymore and he will give me all his passwords when I move to S'pore. Let's see what he will do when I'm not around. He will learn it in hard way that freedom doesn't sweet without me.
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Am I being pathetic?
So far I have been in relationship for more than 3years and that make me to scare of losing it. I am scare that he might get bored of me seeing same face every single day, having sex with the same person over and over and going out with me every time. I tried to put myself into his position and give him some space but I just couldn't. I'm too jealous of every girls he is dealing with, not including his classmates. The young girls might take over my place at any time and he himself told me once that he likes girls with nice boobies and ass which it totally not me.
I feel insecure, tired of stalking his all spacious online activities still he can't help himself being flirty. He told me I'm greedy and super possessive. When it comes to love, you need to be proactive in order to protect it. That's the only way I know and I have no idea how to love a person in proper way. I can't leave him alone where there're many cute girls around him plus he being such a teaser, that would create new episode which I would be played as a villain. Damn he is an ass! I doubt that is he really mean when he said those flirty words. He should behave himself as everyone knows me as his gf and they might think that I can't handle the horny bf. That is simply embarrassing! I suppose to be studying for Final exam by now but I can't just sleep. Sigh** I have to go back to study in order to pass with C, may be C+? I will upload more later. Keep in touch with me guys. (nobody read my blog anyway, I sound like real idiot now) haha..okay Bye!
I feel insecure, tired of stalking his all spacious online activities still he can't help himself being flirty. He told me I'm greedy and super possessive. When it comes to love, you need to be proactive in order to protect it. That's the only way I know and I have no idea how to love a person in proper way. I can't leave him alone where there're many cute girls around him plus he being such a teaser, that would create new episode which I would be played as a villain. Damn he is an ass! I doubt that is he really mean when he said those flirty words. He should behave himself as everyone knows me as his gf and they might think that I can't handle the horny bf. That is simply embarrassing! I suppose to be studying for Final exam by now but I can't just sleep. Sigh** I have to go back to study in order to pass with C, may be C+? I will upload more later. Keep in touch with me guys. (nobody read my blog anyway, I sound like real idiot now) haha..okay Bye!
Monday, September 19, 2011
moving on
There's something in my head lately that is about me and my friends from high school. So much nostalgia these days. Today is the birthday of one of my closest friend from high school (not any more). I did something that she would pissed off and she never told me about that. So, I never had a chance to make up with her, I don't know what's got into her mind. I do like her since we were best mates ever in high school. I know it's partially my fault, I don't know how to face her or explain the misunderstanding that she never brought up to me. She kept quiet and I guess that pushed us to become strangers, well almost. Sometimes, we have short conversations when we met on street, restaurants, etc. And that's all! We haven't had real conversation for like more than a year. Frankly, that makes me kinda sad. I tried to get closer to her after all these things happened but she moved to another place and made new friends and hanged out with them. So, no more chances for me. I really wished I could have said sorry to her at least once but she never told me how she felt about it. Anyway, now I have to admit that I'm jealous of her having her good time with her new buddies and me alone with Austin. That must be punishment from Heaven for me being meddle into something that I shouldn't have. I will be leaving this place may be after graduation around March. So, we won't be seeing each others for rest of our life, unless I tried to meet with her. She seems to move on for what happened , i guess I need to move on too by now. I just wanna say thank you for being with me for last last year, I did have a good time with you. Without you, I will not make this far. Good luck with everything you're doing! Bye.
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Planning for my future
These day, my mind is packed with all the thoughts of moving out to S'pore where I think it's the better workplace for me. As far as I research about the life in there, it won't be easy happy life but I will go for my self improvement.So, here's the plan! I will find a job that will fit me in a way that I can grow my ability, my skill, my career and of course to stuff my fluffy pocket.Then, I will fly to there and take the interviews. If yes, I will stay. If not keep on hunting. I believe there will be one job out there that will need me and suit with my personality. I tried not to depress about something I haven't try yet. Working in BKK is a not bad idea either but when I look at myself and see for the near future like next 2yrs or 3yrs. I guess I'd be more happy with the pennies I would earn in S'pore more. My income proportion would be like that, 1/4 of it will go to savings, another would be for my home back in YGN, another would be to spend for myself and the rest will be pretty much used for home and utility, transportation, foods ,etc. I wish I could earn more than 2000$/month within my first year of working. Who knows, it all depend on my luck and job itself. So, we'll see ..eh? Another major dream would go to Austin. I had my own plan to call him to S'pore and then he can find a job , we can stay together , saving up for our future. sighh, speaking of marriage, I think we need to take at least 3/4yrs for us to have our own world.
As long as he's with me, I'm fine because I know he's the one I gonna be with till the end of my life. We will have beautiful kids with manly thick eyebrows, flirty long eyelashes, with prominent nose bridge..all combined would be perfect match. Well, I guess I went a bit far with my daydreaming. Until next post, I will stop here and go back to study. Good Night internet! (ugh., I have no life)
As long as he's with me, I'm fine because I know he's the one I gonna be with till the end of my life. We will have beautiful kids with manly thick eyebrows, flirty long eyelashes, with prominent nose bridge..all combined would be perfect match. Well, I guess I went a bit far with my daydreaming. Until next post, I will stop here and go back to study. Good Night internet! (ugh., I have no life)
Friday, August 5, 2011
Welcome to my blog!
Just a quick greeting from my personal blog,it's gonna be more causal. My school life, my family, my bf, friends,my lovely pet(no longer) , foods, things, people, places, reviews and thoughts. I would be posting as much as I can since I got some free time during this semester. Senior year in school gives me some feeling that I would be leaving the school soon. Sad but thinking about graduation makes me exciting. I want to keep everything happened in my life as a record just in case I lost my memory ( just saying). :D
Feel free to drop by to my blog & leave some nice comments to show that you care. Alright, last not least I'm gonna have dinner & take shower now. Already late for preparing my new blog , take a while of adjusting things to look better. Anyway, have a sweet weekend people! Good night.
Bunny boy
Introducing Mr. Bun Bun
Most of the people don't know that I have a bunny for more than 4months. I would call him my company rather than calling pet cause he's amazingly intelligent and loving boy. When I got him, he was so small and scare.. all of his siblings went to good homes and his mom was at my friend house, where I got him. I trained him to stand up, walk, jump, spin and litter training too.He quickly learned all these in short period , of course with the bribe (his favorite treat carrot). He love to play around in my room , jump onto my bed and racing with joy. He grown up pretty fast and all I gave him is Hay & pallets, sometimes vegges as a treat only. He's a licker , he would love to lick my fingers, hand to show his affection towards me. Not very long ago, I was on a trip with Austin and it took 2weeks exactly to come back. I left him with my friend, with his mom.
But when I came back, he doesn't remember me at all and refuse to do all tricks either. How sad! Terrible thing is he became aggressive and scare of every sounds I made. Now, I'm finding way back to him , have to start the training all over again. More than that, he accepts me again right now. Not scare of me anymore for God sake.
PS. Oh, you can check out the video of him doing some tricks on youtube. Go click the title of this post and it will bring you to the video.
Laws of friends
Friends? I have many of them since I was little. I was quite popular in high school and lots of people know me that I'm from special class and surrounded by lovely buddies. If some of them got a fight, I was always a middle man and brought peace towards them. I would be getting "best friend of the year" based on my personality among friends. I do have nice personality, what would you call..easy going, funny, honest and active girl.
As time goes by, many of my friends were separated by different colleges, universities. Some went to aboard to study. Some just doing nothing , hanging out with new buddies where they met in English speaking classes , computer classes or something like that. But I never failed to contact all of them. I called them very often, went on date with them since I didn't have a bf at that time.
Childhood friends, of course they still living near my neighborhood. We used to play together, eat together, sleep together, got in fight together, I had pretty much fun time with them too. Now, they all grown up and walk their own way. I do hope that they had some memory from childhood, including ME!
Some kind of friends ask me for help to do something and once they got what they want, they don't bother to say thank you to me. But I don't mind them cause' I consider them as my friends. I am not losing anything for helping them too. Some friends who got really close with me from the past seems not so friendly when we met again. Some misunderstood me and dumped me. I never tried to explain them though. They just don't see the real me, so I let them go. Some got a bf and asked to leave some space for their privacy. Well, it's their lives!
Some classmates became friends and we hanged out for lunch and shopping but it's rare. I don't go along with people who boast on their properties like branded things, cars,etc.Honestly, I don't care whether they eat in HiSo restaurants or how they spend on their shopping or what kinda clothing or accessories they use. I hate those sort of fake friends. They are just trying to show off their things and compete with each others.I'm not jealous here but all their spending came from their parents. Nothing impressive!
Anyway, those people are always walking in and out of my life and claim to be my friends. No matter how long or short period I spend together with them, I still thankful for being with me.Good or bad is nothing I can do cause they choose to be my friends. I love all my buddies.! Seriously. :D
As time goes by, many of my friends were separated by different colleges, universities. Some went to aboard to study. Some just doing nothing , hanging out with new buddies where they met in English speaking classes , computer classes or something like that. But I never failed to contact all of them. I called them very often, went on date with them since I didn't have a bf at that time.
Childhood friends, of course they still living near my neighborhood. We used to play together, eat together, sleep together, got in fight together, I had pretty much fun time with them too. Now, they all grown up and walk their own way. I do hope that they had some memory from childhood, including ME!
Some kind of friends ask me for help to do something and once they got what they want, they don't bother to say thank you to me. But I don't mind them cause' I consider them as my friends. I am not losing anything for helping them too. Some friends who got really close with me from the past seems not so friendly when we met again. Some misunderstood me and dumped me. I never tried to explain them though. They just don't see the real me, so I let them go. Some got a bf and asked to leave some space for their privacy. Well, it's their lives!
Some classmates became friends and we hanged out for lunch and shopping but it's rare. I don't go along with people who boast on their properties like branded things, cars,etc.Honestly, I don't care whether they eat in HiSo restaurants or how they spend on their shopping or what kinda clothing or accessories they use. I hate those sort of fake friends. They are just trying to show off their things and compete with each others.I'm not jealous here but all their spending came from their parents. Nothing impressive!
Relationship diaster
Have you ever experienced any problems in your relationship? I do! well, this might be a normal issue to anyone who's been in long term commitment with your partner. People do change over time, believe me! I've been through all the changes he had been and I have to admit that I myself changed too. From 2008 to 2011, we've been stick together really firm and nobody couldn't break us down unless we want to. Lately, I found out that he's making out with the new girl over his BB chat and I'm beside him lying on the bed. He doesn't mind me watching him chatting with girls but the thing is I DO MIND! I didn't noticed how far he's been reach to with that girl but I'm pretty sure that conversation was pretty smooth like the beginning of something. I kept watching him without saying anything until he turn off his phone to go for bed. He thought I'm okay with this matter, hell no! How am I suppose to be alright when my bf is chit chat with new girl and threw some flirty words, (lol..:P blah blah blah) Just think about it. I said it's time for bed and what he said to her was "we gonna continue discuss about this later".
What the holy fuck is happening beside me? He has more things to discuss with her when I am not around? When I brought about this matter to him , he simply said you don't need to worry just friends. HA HA HA! That's my reaction to his words. There's a rule in this world in case you don't know a bf and the girl can never be good friends without conflict with his gf. That's the nature, I hate it but it's true. No jealous or anything like that. Just pissed off the way he treated that girl is the way he did to me in the beginning of our relationship. I can't blame to the girl since I know guys are no good and always find a way to cheat girls. Call me pessimistic but I had really bad experience in cheating and breaking relationship in my family and also in the environment I've grown up. Talking about cheating remind me of my dad who left the family for his business partner wife. I swear by after that day I will never let my own family happen that.
I'm not looking for a perfect guy. Someone who I can learn on when I tired, who can swipe away my tears without asking why, who can stay with me for his entire life and the most important things is to love me and faithful to me. Am I demanding too much? I guess not. Anyway, I want to stay out of relationship sometimes. It's been really hard for me to maintain this relationship by one side while he doesn't care that much. Ending with someone can be a beginning with another one. Should I let him go? or hold on to him? Well, time will tell. All I can do is wait & see.
What the holy fuck is happening beside me? He has more things to discuss with her when I am not around? When I brought about this matter to him , he simply said you don't need to worry just friends. HA HA HA! That's my reaction to his words. There's a rule in this world in case you don't know a bf and the girl can never be good friends without conflict with his gf. That's the nature, I hate it but it's true. No jealous or anything like that. Just pissed off the way he treated that girl is the way he did to me in the beginning of our relationship. I can't blame to the girl since I know guys are no good and always find a way to cheat girls. Call me pessimistic but I had really bad experience in cheating and breaking relationship in my family and also in the environment I've grown up. Talking about cheating remind me of my dad who left the family for his business partner wife. I swear by after that day I will never let my own family happen that.
I'm not looking for a perfect guy. Someone who I can learn on when I tired, who can swipe away my tears without asking why, who can stay with me for his entire life and the most important things is to love me and faithful to me. Am I demanding too much? I guess not. Anyway, I want to stay out of relationship sometimes. It's been really hard for me to maintain this relationship by one side while he doesn't care that much. Ending with someone can be a beginning with another one. Should I let him go? or hold on to him? Well, time will tell. All I can do is wait & see.
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